Major Life Crisis Ahead

Okay, it may not be a major life crisis, but I am struggling with a few things. It's been a few weeks, one day shy of a full on month actually, since I graduated, and I have gone nowhere. I have moved back home where I don't have any friends, a job, or anything to do. Really, my biggest accomplishment was maybe having a dogsitting job at the end of October. I think this is the definition of pathetic. Really, though. How horrible do I have to be to apply for fifty-ish jobs and not even be able to get an interview.

What am I supposed to do? I spent three years in college getting a degree in something that I didn't realize I absolutely hated until the semester before I graduated. But at that point it was way, way too late to change my major. Plus, there was this huge thing with financial aid that there absolutely is no time to get into. Now, I don't know what I am going to do.

When I was picking majors I was between Athletic Training and Social Work. I chose Social Work because that's what my mom advised me to do. I don't want to be my mom, though. I wonder what would have happened had I gone the other route. Throughout my time studying social change and the planned change process, I dreamt of standing on the sidelines. I spent pretty much every free moment either working in athletics, at a baseball or football game, or reading about sport business.

So, here's the thing. I will always be a social worker and of that I am proud. I know I complained a lot about it, but I started something and completed it. Plus, social workers do amazing things. It's just, I don't want that to be the main thing that defines me. I know there's this whole "the grass is greener on the otherside" thing going on, but I honestly, wholeheartedly, 100 percent think that I would be happier should I have gone the athletic training route. I mean, sports are my life, and I love helping people.

With all of this being said, I think I'm going back to school. I think I'm going to try to go become the person that I know I could be and the person that I should be. This change is going to be crazy for me, but I know it is something that I have to do. I'm not completely sure about how I'm going to make this happen, but here's to trying!

Change is inevitable. You might as well take control of what you can.